Like I’ve said in my previous blog, I feel like wanted to use blogspot again and YES, I’m using it now. So I’m gonna stop using this one immediately.
I know you’re still interested in reading my life *HAHA* , my new blog is http://nikkiszeli.blogspot.com
Hopefully you guys will visit it ^^
Take care people!!
=D
I didn’t get to online for a week due to my busy busy-ness. It wasn’t a good kind of busy, it’s the bad kind and trust me, no one will ever want to be in my shoes coz it’s truly a nightmare. The worst nightmare ever! I’ve cried till my eyes as swollen as a .. ping pong ball? And I thought I’ll be in that nightmare forever and never will escape from it but thank God, everything went back to normal and I’m grateful for that.
But this nightmare’s stuck on my mind, and it’s hard to take it off. Maybe time will lessen the pain and tears that I’ve been through. It made it kinda reluctant to be with the one that made this nightmare at times. But it’s getting better than, better than the past few days. She’s lucky to forget about everything that happened and I can’t, and I’m suffering for the pains. No one from the family have seen it and I’m the only one, let’s exclude 2 of my girls and the people from hospital. I believe that that’s the weakest moment of my life up till now.
It feels good to have support from closed friends but yet .. I don’t think that they understand everything that I’ve been through. If that nightmare is a test from God, I think I’ve failed it badly coz I wasn’t strong enough to stop my tears and be calm through the whole madness.
But after the nightmare, 2 things that happened made me feel better. First is .. well, I rather keep this to myself; Second is Lieslie’s back! She suprised me actually, coz it’s a super last minute thing and she only told me when she’s back in Brunei. Too bad that San isn’t here though, such a spoiler. Pfft!
Oh yeaa ~ my hair’s slightly longer now! YIPEE! It’s touching my shoulders now. Haha! I can’t wait for my hair to grow and I’m thinking about hair extensions, I wonder how much does it cost at my aunt’s salon ~ HMMM ~
I’m chatting with Wendy now and she made me feel like opening blogspot again ~ HMM ~ I DO MISS BLOGSPOT seriously. Because I can change the blogskin and there’s the cbox which made it easier to chat in blog and .. AIYAA ~ I just miss blogspot! Okay, maybe I’ll do it tomorrow. BE PROUD AA WENDY! XD
Alrighty, last night I can actually run downstairs to watch ANTM.
I’M FEELING BETTER PEOPLE!!
I bet all of you are happy to see me this good, thanks to all of your love & care =D But to be honest, still a bit weak la. I can’t walk up and down too much or I’ll feel .. like out of oxygen. Lols. Then haa ~ I can still sweat a lot, which is so not me! I never sweat that easily, my sweat glands are not that active but it’s quite active lately ..
But anywaysss ~ my ulcers are gone ~ !! But still no appetite yet, then my sorethroat said byebye to me. When I woke up, I manage to spit out large, humongous, really bloody .. ERRR ~ let’s make it sounds nice, ‘flame’. If you don’t get it, it’s MUCUS alright. It’s like the very last piece stucked in between my nose and throat and there it was .. gone! XD
SO HAPPY LA MEEEEEEE !!
Okay ~ I know it’s disgusting .. but come on ~ THIS IS ALL NATURAL! Right? XD
But my eyes .. ooooooohhhhhhhh ~ I’m starting to feel slight pain when I move my eyeball ~ My mum called and said that it’s better if tomorrow I go see the eye specialist. Well, the pharmacist said that the medicine is for 7 days, so I think it’s better for me to wait till that 7th day. If it’s still red baru then go cari eye specialist then.
Okay, back to ANTM.
My mum was admitted into the hospital this evening, as she wished. She seriously can’t take it anymore, until she wished to be admitted into the hospital, so do I. But I’m feeling much better today, so I don’t think I need to do so. But I think my eye isn’t getting better, it looks the same to me everyday. In addition, I’m starting to feel a lil bit of pain … Am I dying? Okay, everytime when I’m this sick, I always think like that, like my mum =="
My mum went to KB Hospital again in the afternoon, and the doctor took a sample of urine from my mum and through all the process/processes, they found out that my mum’s urine contains bacteria so she gotta stay. I hope I’m not that bad, my urine looks okay now to me. Okay, naked eyes can’t see bacteria ==" Hmm .. I got a bit of diarrhoea .. Not super serious, really really minor, can I say it’s acute? If tomorrow’s still the same, I gotta ask my dad to bring me to KB Hospital as well.
But, I have to admit I feel better overall, at least I ate something else other than bread, milk and orange juice. I had 2 small bowls of soup, can’t really taste the salty-ness though, must be my ulcers, and I had a fried chicken just now. (WHAT!) Yes, fried chicken, I can’t help it! >.<
Anyways, the last time I checked my ulcers, they seem to be smaller now, I hope I’m not imagining things! Oh yea ~ I print screened a pic after my lunch. Just to humour myself while I’m sick.
I call this .. SickAss. I know it’s a nice name .. I’m proud of myself really. I meant it! I never upload this kind of photo in my blog alright! Actually that time me and my mum were trying to scare my lil sis just because she’s being rude and dirty. Then I was trying to cover my giggles and smile with the tissue. And it ended up like this.
Look on the bright side, I got my sense of humour back, so I must be getting better right?
My Grandma woke up me like 6plus am, damn early! She did so because there’s a call for me. And I thought it’s a call from UBD. But it turns out to be from Chung Liang. I’ve applied for the kindergarten teacher and the principal is asking me to go over there at 9am actually. Since I’m having red eye, he postponed the interview until I’m recover. It’s a must! I can’t go out like this! I might infect the kids, which will be very troublesome. This is a new reason why I must recover quickly, job interview!
I sweat so much today, I sweat like a non-stop-hit. And I’m sweating again now, which makes me feel that my shower just now is kinda useless.
Until noon time then I realised that I have ulcersssssssssssssssssss near my throat, big and small! I freaked out man! I never have ulcers at the back of my mouth, only near my lips. OMG, no wonder I’m having a hard time to swallow stuffs.
I think I’m getting slim here .. Okay, I’m just trying to make the best out of my current situation =="
Sighs.
I went to see the doc 2 days ago .. and yeaa ~ I got the stupid red eye! I’m so fucking sick and weak and I can’t sleep well. There’s a short period I feel cold so I have to make my air-con warmer .. then at the middle of the night, my body feels super duper warm, like it’s gonna burst or something! Argh! I hate it! My fever is on and off and I don’t know how long is this gonna take me, but I’m sure my eyes gonna take at least a week to be okay and doesn’t look scary or contagious to people.
I feel drowsy after my medication .. Gotta walk slowly like an old lady .. and everything I eat seems to be tasteless, which result in me having no appetite. And when I wake up, I have those super duper headache ==" Every part of my body feels sore as well. T___________T
My mum is even worse .. she’s on the way to KB Hospital coz she can’t take it anymore .. she has no appetite, fever on and off, coughing etc. She’s sick like .. for almost a week already? And she feels that her medication isn’t helping her, so she decided to go to see a doctor right now. Poor Mamee ……
I have weird dreams every morning .. they seem to be connected .. and I think there’s a guy I know, is in it as well .. it’s all blur .. I hate the way I feel right now .. weak and sick and not able to do anything .. and every single minute thing can freaks me out, like .. someone walked past me, my dad talking to me, my lil sis suddenly pop out from my back, cartoons .. anything that’s gonna be sudden, Imma jump out from my skin. It’s like the ’specialty’ of my sick .. I can be scared easily ==" When I’m okay, I’m not like that.
When am I gonna be alright? T_______________T
Gosh .. can’t stop complaining =="
I feel very the cold in this warm warm day .. ==" I’M FREEZINGGGG !! Fever, stuffy nose and sore throat in one go ==" ARRRGGGHHH!! FUCK LAA ~ T________________T
I feel worse than ever, & I HATEEEE IT!!
Eyes still kinda red red, if tomorrow the redness isn’t going away, I’ll find doctor liao ==" which I don’t really want to. I hate hospitals and clinics !
Okay, Imma hit the bed now ..
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ ~
I AM SO SICK! Like .. VERY VERY SICK.
God, I shouldn’t eat my mum’s porridge last night after she ate it. SHE’S THE SOURCE OF THE GERMS AND VIRUSES IN MY BODY NOW!! Argh!
When I woke up this morning, my left eye itches and it’s reddy red red. Then the size of my eyes aren’t balance. WTF mannn ! And for the whole day .. I did nothing much other than sitting in front the lappie and watched ANTM Cycle 8 and at last I’ve finished it, starting on Cycle 9 now. But I think I can only tahan for the 1st episode coz I need to sleep =="
Other than my ‘cute’ right eye, I have sore throat and stuffy nose. T_____________T Oh Godddddd ~ PLEASE SAVE ME!
Despite for my kasian-ness, today’s my mum’s birthday and it’s Zheng’s big day as well.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRLS ~ !! LOVE YA!!
Just done with my clay mask, almost cracked my mask when I was chatting with Fiq. That cheebye kiaaa ~ always talk shittttt ~ make me laugh some more!! Hahahahaha! And now I’m sending him 杨宗纬’s songs and it’s cheebye slowwwwwwwwwwwwww ~
He’s the malay dude I ever wanted for as a buddy ~ who also listens to chinese songs =D I loike that!
Anyways ~ I just realised youtube has ANTM again!! I’M SO HAPPY!! Imma start watching it from Cycle 8 coz I missed the last few episodes and I don’t remember which .. so I think it’s better for me to start all over =D Since I’m so jobless, I guess it doesn’t matter. And the user has Cycle 10 as well!! X3 SUPER DUPER HAPPY!!
Alright, back to ANTM!
OMG ~ I’m having a headache ==" Don’t really want to take panadol laa ~ But if I can’t stand it anymore .. I won’t give a fuck anymore!!!
I’m sooooo hungry right noww ~ craving for something sweet .. *slurps* I watched Ladies First the other day and Niu Er said that girls who love to take sweet stuffs, their skin will age quicker! I was like .. WTF!! I super duper love sweet stuffs ~ a very serious case in sweet-tooth =="
I just remember that last year I did go to my Grandpa’s cemetry .. It’s been 4 years since he passed away .. I was kinda moody when I arrived there, probably because I kinda missed him. I don’t have much memory with him, ‘coz he’s quiet and he’s always in his room except during meal times. Before he passed away, I remember that he couldn’t recognise any of us, not even my mum. He thought my mum was a malay lady and kept on speaking malay to her. My mum was so sad .. When he passed away, she couldn’t stop crying. He passed away when he was having his nap.
Oh well ~ every start has an end.
Gonna sleep now ~ night people.
